But my psychiatrist was sick today. yay! I was so happy, didn't need to hear her preach. It's like torture. Why is she doing it? She now she can't help me.. I've been in therapy since I was 11 years old! I've had like 5 diffrent psychologists and psychiatrists, and besides that I've had some social worker and nurses. I've been at the hospital so many times that I can't even count. One time I had to stay there for 2 years and 3 months! Geez, why can't they just leave me alone, take my point? I probaly sonds like I feel really sorry for myself, but I don't. I just want to tell u that I'm so fucking tired of all the treatment.

It's my mums birthday today. U all know what that's like. A lot of cakes and other food, but luckily I'm sick to day, and probably tomorrow too. I've been eating to much so I have to take laxes to night too. I'm afraid I'm a bit more addicted to those pills than I want to admit... What I ate today: 2 buns, 1 open sandwich and some orange juice. It's probaly like 2000 kcal! That's way to much. So I need to get ridd of it...

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